I’ve been doing really good. Thanks for asking. I know I’ve not written anything for a while. I almost stop writing. I had this thought that I’ve been spending too much time on writing and it probably isn’t going anywhere.
I have this “greed” that I think I can have anything imaginable. I want to be a musician. I want to be a photographer. I want to write a book. I want to produce a million dollar software. I want everything but I don’t have time for all of them at once. And if I would put them into a list, it will just demotivate me further.
I’m about to make a list of reasons that I’m better off from writing. But the more I think about them, the more they become excuses. And I remember this quote that says “If you love it, you will make time for it. If you don’t love it, you will make excuses.” So, probably I don’t really in love with writing anyway. So, why waste time writing so much where in the end it is not going to be anything?
But, come to think about my life. What productive stuffs that I can do other than writing. This weekend is the one most wasted weekend ever. I’ve spend my whole weekend watching and playing games. Well, it sounds fun. Really fun. But, I feel useless. I’m 25 now. And, I don’t even know what I want in my life.
Well, it’s not really productive either to whine about it even though it’s a form of writing. So, I will just stop here.